…it feels hard, it is hard.
I feel like I am drowning in the pool
of my fears and dragged further down by the hand of uncertainties. This
moment, I try to breathe. It’s hard.
It’s like I am suffocating. One moment, it looks like I have it all put together. The other, it’s like I am lost, again.
This moment, is sad, for me and maybe
someone else too. I am tired. My heart feels tired too from the constant
struggle to finding and becoming. Deep down, the root of my heart still has
some strength left, some smiles left, and perhaps a few words.
Maybe a little more drive to push, just maybe what they call luck will shine on me too.
Just maybe.
But this moment, I just allow the
pain. I just allow it to envelope me. I try not to rush over it or allow it to seal
its flap over me because I know that would be too hard to come out of.
I have once been there, it’s not a
good place to be.
This moment, I am praying and hoping that tomorrow will be better. That the sun will melt the stone in my heart and wash the pain off. That indeed, a moment will come, sometime soon when all of these will be once upon a time.
But this moment, right now, I lay down, soaked in my tears, my lips sealed but my heart wailing.
I close my eyes this moment and hope
to see the sun on the other side.
TA
P.S – If you are reading this, and feeling this way or maybe worse, hang in there. You will be fine, if only you choose hope and light. You will be fine!
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